Sad...

Man i just feel like giving up. Me and my boyfriend have been trying since november of last year and we’ve had no luck. last month i was 7 days late and got a “false positive” on a blue dye test twice and then got my period 2 days later. i personally think something might be wrong with my body and i’m the reason we haven’t gotten pregnant. my periods are unbearable(can not move from bed and no relief the first 2-3 days) and heavy and long and just not normal to me. i’m going to my gyno tomorrow to get a vaginal and regular ultrasound to see if they find anything abnormal and if they don’t see anything they’re also going to test me for endo in a few weeks. i was on the depo shot for 3 years, and have now been off of it and all birth control for over 2 1/2 years and i truly think depo might have made me infertile, and i hate myself everyday for it. i’m sorry to rant i’ve just been feeling so hopeless and worthless thinking about all of this. my boyfriend wants a baby more than anything and i feel so bad it hasn’t happened for us yet. :(