TTC WITH A DISABILITY!

I hate the word disability. But according to the state Im entirely disabled.

My diag. is BPD, chronic and seasonal depression, generalized anxiety and most effecting, anorexia.

pregnancy + eating disorders are usually a big ole NO.

And I won’t lie it’s a constant thing in my head, what if I don’t eat enough? What if my pregnant body is too much for me to cope with? What if I can’t get out of bed to tend to the baby?

My biggest goal my entire life has been to mother something, to have a purpose. Now I’m aware that I’ll never be ready for my first baby till he or she is here in my arms and I’m sure even then I’ll be confused. But parts of me think the responsibilities will maybe give me a breakthrough within my treatment other parts of me feel like I’ll be a train wreck of a mother trying to deal with extreme postpartum . We are positive we want to ttc it’s something we’ve both wanted our whole lives. I guess I’m scared. Looking for resources and support. Thanks ladies.