I still love him and dont know what to do

So i met this guy through my sisters now ex They were coworkers. He was 23 and i was 17 and we were talking for months and i really started liking him but was afraid because i fell way too fast. I knew he liked me back it was just the age thing i guess. Yes i was illegal.. I mean i cant help my age. We went to this concert one day with my sister and her bf at the time and him i fucked up and got drunk and we ended up having sex dont worry tho we both wanted it. But after he wanted more and he asked to be fuck buddies first i said no but then i changed my mind because i wanted him and didnt care how i got him. He made me feel special and loved and like we were dating and barely even had sex we just went on what i would've liked to call them dates. But i dont think he would've called them that. The last time we had sex was last year and i realized i fell really hard for him and i loved him...still do... But It was too late he was moving 6 hrs away and at the time i didnt have a job or a license or anything like that... So before he moved i told him how i felt i didn't say i loved him but said ya know ill miss you and i really like you and have liked you ya know shit like that just pouring my heart out to him weeks go by he never responded to it so when he moved i asked him hey dont leave me hanging like how did you or do you feel about me.. And he wrote something like i liked you but it was never love and i basically said i understand and blah blah... He blocked me because he didnt want to keep hurting me but him leaving hurt the most and him blocking me he thought it would save me from a broken heart and it just kept getting worse he was an amazing guy the sweetest the cutest the funniest person i have ever met.Its been a year since weve talked ive matured since then hes 24 im 18 now aka legal but thats not the point i miss him and im stuck where to go from here do i move on is he gone for good...?