Confused

I don't know how to write this because I've posted things on here before and people have been really judgmental. But for the most part helpful. So my situation is I'm confused and lost. I have been married for 2 years and together for 7 years total. Now I'm not going to sit here and complain about all the negatives. Mostly our relationship is just plain. I don't feel in love with him or desired by him. He has been hurtful in our relationship and he even admits to it. Not abusive, but rude. He's told me before he's not attracted to me because I gained weight, he makes comments about me not being able to "give him a baby". And even though it seems happy most time's, I feel like I have to force myself to be happy. I talk to other people and no, not on sneaky stuff. But I recently met someone who has given me so much more attention then my husband has ever given me. He respects me and listens and I also know that in the beginning that's how it is when something is fresh. Now pause. I'm not saying woah let me leave my husband for another man. Never that. But I know there's someone out there who will give me everything I'm looking for in every aspect. I feel failed with trying with my husband. I tell him all my emotions and he tells me things like I need to control my emotions, I need to not let his actions affect my happiness. And thing's never change. I'm stuck in what to do and could use some advice. Thank's for reading.

Update:

So weeks later and I have told my husband shortly after posting that I'm not in love with him and I'm not sure what I want to do but be alone. He got upset saying that we built a life together and why would I want to leave that. Over the weeks I've been depressed and I started counseling. He's not been extremely supportive he just is basic still. He also guilt trips me saying that I'm treating him like a "worn out shoe." But honestly I'm depressed so I can't show happiness and I've even had to force myself to be happy. I'm scared to move forward by myself. I would have to leave and start over and try to figure it all out. It gives me a lot of anxiety because I have been homeless many of times in my life and I never want to face that. And the thought of starting over makes me sick. Idk what to do.