Suffering from PPD, family thinks I’m rude?

My family talks about me behind my back and I can just feel the tension and that they’re upset when I don’t show up to events or try to get out of any (even when they’re for myself or my daughter) . I always make excuses why I can’t go somewhere or bail last minute because I’m actually suffering from PPD . Or at least I think I am .

They get mad and don’t talk to me, or call me rude behind my back, talk bad about myself and my husband, which honestly makes everything worse ! Yesterday I bailed again, in the morning though...you can tell they’re really mad . It was something they were planning for my daughters christening (but it was 2 weeks after it happened) . Because they weren’t around for the first celebration . It was hard enough for me to have the get together after the christening . I don’t want to do another one .

If I tell them the truth they won’t understand or take me seriously . So I all around just feel DUMB and don’t want to show my face again . I feel rude , but I can’t help how I feel .