Don't want to go to my own baby shower...

I am having anxiety about going to my baby shower. I will be over 36 weeks and it's going to be in another state 5 hours away. My mom is doing it for me; the place is already booked and invitations are sent out. However my mom is not very happy about my pregnancy and the rest of my family in the other state aren't either. Nobody has called me to check in with me and I feel they are all talking shit behind my back. Not even my grandpa called to see how I'm feeling. I have not spoke to him in 8 months. I know he is upset with me because I didn't meet his expectations in life. My mom says I'm the young one supposed to be checking on him.

I'm the black sheep because I rebelled by moving out before marriage and eloped. Then 2 years later got pregnant after eloping. Also my mom says my husband is not welcome to take me to my baby shower 5 hours away and that it will just be my parents take me, not my husband. I have been with him for 8 years and they never approved of him because of his race and his parents don't speak english. They look down upon his family... I thought they would be used to him by now but I guess not. So now I don't even feel like going if my husband isn't welcomed, and nobody there is happy for my baby. 😔

Either way I have to go because she cannot cancel it. The reason why she said my husband cannot go is because my dad and my grandpa said they don't want to see him or it won't be pretty. My husband doesn't know he isn't welcomed and is going to take me but idk what will happen and at 36 weeks i can't deal with toxic people. My family has always been stressful to be around so I can't imagine dealing with them w/ them while preg