Slumber Parties 🙄

Not for children.. for me. The 30 year old who has never enjoyed sleeping in other peoples homes (unless it involved a dick appointment) I have anxiety and OCD..

My godmother is so excited about me and my baby. I’m 29 weeks pregnant. I cant sleep for shit. She’s been sending Amazon packages weekly for the last 3 months. I don’t ask her to gift us anything..She recently moved 4 hours away! So we don’t get to hang out often. She’s in her 50s, not married and has no kids. She retired and very wealthy.. I know she buys the baby and me gifts because she wants to and loves us. She’s also very generous with my other 3 children.

I don’t find much time to travel to her house now that she’s moved because I have 3 kids who are in sports and It’s hard to find extra time to plan all days trips. I really look forward to relaxing when they’re gone..Plus my car is shit..

She’s invited me over next weekend. I won’t have my kids so I told her I’d be able come up for the day and visit. Another one of her friends is planning to drive up also, so We planned that I carpool with her. My car is old as hell and I need new tires so I can’t drive it for 4 hours each direction..

I just got a text saying forget the carpool, she wants to give me cash for a rental. But I’d need TO SPEND THE WEEKEND 😱😢 I literally have never wanted to sleep over at anybody’s house, I hate hotels, and the only way I’d be able to cope when I have slept over is by being drunk and getting wang.

I feel horrible now. She knows I hate sleeping outside of my own bed. I have to use my maternity pillow and my own sheets.

She also was diagnosed with herpes on the skin and flares up badly all over her body 😩. When she sleeps here, she brings her own sleeping bag and I still wash everything heavily when she leaves, I have bedding here that I only use for her. I’d feel so rude wanting to throw away my maternity pillow and sheets after leaving her house. Or even taking my own sheets to sleep in her house. She brings her own because of her skin condition.. what would my excuse be??

What the hell can i say to be honest enough she gets the point that I won’t sleep over but I will spend the day.. and also not hurt her feelings or feel like I’m being rude? I mentioned her gifting is because I feel guilty that she spends this money and time traveling back this way and I don’t do the same for her. I’ve also asked her to stop sending gifts but she wants to and says it’s what makes her happy.