School?

Okay lemme start off with the back story. Last year bullying stared to get VERY severe for me ( ive been bullied for 4 years straight and people were constantly jumping on me) and I started doing online school this school year (2019-2020) after I got out of the psych ward. I’m now stressing out because if I go back to the school I was bullied at with the same people it’s gonna continue and I’m gonna look stupid 🤦🏽‍♀️ and if I go to any other local schools it’ll be the same to because people were talking about me at several schools.I just want to go to to school safe. 😭 I don’t talk to anyone anymore and I don’t want to. People are constantly making up lies and rumors about me and my confidence is really low. My own mom has always bullied me and she thinks I’m a slut. I’ve had idk how many suicide attempts and almost died this year. Idk just needed to rant 😭