I lost the baby

After 3 years of trying and countless fertility appointments, we finally got those two lines. It was the most incredible moment of our lives! It was the first time I saw my husband cry.

We went in for our 7 week confirmation ultrasound, excited to see our little blueberry for the first time and see a heartbeat. Instead, the ultrasound tech was quiet and was looking EVERYWHERE inside my uterus, ovaries, fallopian tubes... The air in the room was gone. I couldn't see anything. She went to get the Dr. I couldn't even breathe. I knew what he was going to say. I had some blood drawn the day before but never received the results. He told me my progesterone was less than 7, even with injections and pills, and my HCG was less than 5. The baby didn't make it past 5 weeks. I just wept. I sat there with a sheet over my lower half while I wept and my dr. told me what to expect over the next week or so.

The baby is still inside me, and I will miscarry naturally in the next few days. How could this happen? Why? I am broken and am numb. If this has happened to you, I am so sorry. It truly isn't fair.