Is it awful

I feel awful about it but I just really want another baby. I dont know if its hormones or what but I just had my son 3 weeks ago and my daughter is 18 months and honestly I've already picked out a name and everything. My husband has said no but I'm a stay at home mum. I'm going to be one until my children go to school when their 5 I might as well have another 🤷‍♀️

But my husband is refusing. He has always known I wanted a big family but he is happy with two

Like I wouldnt start trying until my son is at least 8 months old but my husband is adamant he doesn't want anymore