Marriage

I hate to post this but just need to vent. I’m so miserable. Who I was 3 years ago and who I am today are so different. Is there hope for a marriage when you change or drift off? I’ve grown up and matured. We have a kid. My husband is toxic masculinity to the T. It’s been rough. Yes I’ve gone to marital counseling. It made it worse. Just not sure I can even leave. I am a stay at home wife. Would love a loving and sweet man. Tired of feeling like crap and being so miserable I can’t sleep anymore.