How do you...

How do you leave someone you love to bits?

I've been unhappy in my relationship for a while.. We're good together although I feel like we're not in 1 line with eachother.. I feel like he believes he's better than me and it's taking a toll on me.

We've also got a LOT of loans going on and all of them are on my name (because we don't want to fail his kids, they deserve a nice life with good food and all things normal kids have) because he can't get any loans because his name is still on the loan form from his ex's house . I will already need years to recover from our relationship financially.

So although I still love him.. And I don't want to leave him.. I feel like leaving is the only way I can recover from this.

He doesn't really want to participate in saving money so we end up with me saving every cent I have.. And him spending it (we have joint accounts). Because he feels we deserve all these things (foods, snacks, drinks)

We're not big spenders but I calculated, we could be saving 70€ each month we are now spending on unnecessary snacks and 30€ on energy drinks.

Not to mention how much we could save if we would eat more budget with smaller portions and fewer ingredients. But he feels it would make us unhealthier.. And he's right as well..

I just don't want to be in debt all the time anymore...

I'm a bit desperate.. I also don't know where I can go.