Me and my so have been together 4 years in January..... We have not had it easy... In the beginning he was a full blown addict.. I had no idea... Later on everything came out of the wood work... I decided that even though our entire relationship was built on lies and deceit I was gonna stick it out because I generally loved him.... Been threw 2 rehabs on his end and 1 on mine after my mother died last September... Well here we are both clean and have a 5 week old daughter together and I am so unbearably unhappy... I mean.. Yes I still love him.. He is such a good father to our kids but our relationship has died it seems like . We do to communicate during the day. We constantly argue. About petty shit that could be all together avoided... We don't have any kind of intimacy anymore... And haven't for a couple of months... I'm just so lost... I don't even know how to fix this or if it's even fixable... I love him our kids love him... But I feel so alone and unwanted and undesirable... Are all long term relationships this distant feeling.... I mean I'm not asking for constant communication but put your phone down and tell me how your day was or if we have 15 mins between feedings hug me and tell me that you love me.... I feel so disconnected and distant... And if I try and tell him this.... It's... Well talk if you have something to say... Or it's not like we have any time to do anything your always tending to her... And I don't see any time where I can fit in.... I try and write it out or type it out but it just goes unread... And undiscussed.... Which makes me feel even more unheated ... I don't know.... I almost feel like we have just grown apart.. But I still have this tint voice in my head that's holding me back from leaving saying... Don't give up... The light could be at the end of this long and twisted tunnel... And you'll never know if you leave now...... Sorry I just needed to say it to someone that may understand.....