It’s rough

Who knew trying to conceive after a miscarriage would be this draining. You literally have to get back in the mind set of “ I don’t care” and basically not stress.. that’s how I got pregnant the first time but now trying again for baby #2 and praying it sticks is the most stressful thing ever. I’m constantly checking the toilet for blood I’m constantly keeping track of how many cramps I have like it makes you go insane not gonna lie...I just got a new job so I’m hoping that keeps me distracted from the “ OMG am I pregnant?” moments. It’s hard it truly is and I just want it to get easier and I know it will with time but I’m hurt I’m emotional and just trying to get over the miscarriage is a challenge but I know In the end all this will be worth it🙂