Waiting on my positive

So I have this whole scenario played out in my head when I get pregnant. I’ve lost 7 pregnancies. I have one healthy child that’s 6 1/2. We’re actively trying to get pregnant but I’m not telling my husband when I test. When I get my positive I want to wait until I have an ultrasound. And with me being high risk I’ll get in right away to my specialist. Or maybe wait til I have my hcg drawn to know the numbers. Whether it’s bad or good I’ll have to tell him. I just hope it’s good so he’ll be excited. I just don’t know to keep this secret lol. I’m horrible at keeping my own secrets. I’m just so ready for my double rainbow.