New baby.. just don’t feel sexy

I’m 3 weeks postpartum and I feel completely disgusting I want my husband badly but I don’t want him to see my body. (I have been performing oral on him and using an external vibrator on myself as cleared by my ob) I know the days are ticking down to my 6 weeks postpartum appointment and I’ll be cleared to return to full sexual activity. Don’t get me wrong with all these hormone changes I want my husband more than ever, but the thought of him seeing my body scares me. I haven’t felt sexy since before my pregnancy and my husband hasn’t really been the one to initiate sex or intimacy.. it’s silly but making me feel less sexy

How do I handle this or make myself feel good in my own skin again?