Would have been my due date

Today would have been my due date of mc #2. I carried to 10w1d but baby stopped growing at 9w2d. We have several friends who have literally given birth within the last week and it's really hard. I'm glad I have been seeking help and that I have an appointment today. Still. I couldn't help myself and took a test. Negative. Again. I'm only 9 days PO, so I want to hold out hope but I'm also so tired. Just wanted to share in case anyone else out there was going through it and felt alone.