Today I finally went back to hospital just to thank my lactation consultant.

Some might say she was paid for her advice and coaching but I know how much she helped me.

My baby was born with 4.86kgs and now at 3.5months weighs 8kgs. I credit this to breastfeeding and ultimately to her.

See as a FTM, I had no idea what is good or bad. But she was there to correct anything the nurses did that could affect my breast feeding journey.

I remember my husband took baby for hearing test and he came back with a pacifier. Apparently baby had cried so much and they even failed to take the test but still gave him a pacifier. She took it away when she found it in the room and it helped me stand my ground every time hubby wanted to pass him one.

The nurses gave me nipple shields as my nipples were hurting and she took them away and gave me soothing creme and pads and encouraging words that it will get better. It got better.

I remember all those times my mom told me I was too thin to support his weight n feeding needs and I should suppliment. But I didn't because the tips of the lactation consultant were still ringing in my ears.

My baby kept growing and didn't seem to be starving like everyone assumed.

Now, my baby drinks so well, he is so intelligent and active yet he ain't even 4 months yet. He is healthy and strong and still big. All due to my milk.

I have this bond, skin to skin, I don't have to worry about bacteria or if his milk is too hot. I don't even have to buy milk or wake up to first prepare a feed when he cries. It is ever ready and just right for him.

So much I could have gone wrong because of people who told me what I should do in their opinion. And yet, she was there to answer my questions and guide me. I hear so many women struggle with breast feeding and supply due to mistakes nurses did while they were in hospital or wrong tips they got from people who thought they knew better or just starting out wrong and I am humbled because it could have been me. (not talking about those who struggle due to health or physical reason but rather the reasons that could have been avoided with proper advice)

After 3 months, I went back and took her some gifts. I was dismissed abruptly and quickly when she wasn't on duty so I never got to say thanks. She was so proud to see my baby and he was just all smiley with her. I feel I owe his health to her honestly. She did more than just her job. Her passion is unchallengeable. I still go back to all the information she gave me back then.

Sometimes, it is just good to appreciate what people do for the well being of our little ones.

One thing I can say to you mothers who want to breast feed, a lactation consultant is a worthwhile investment.