Well my almost 2 year old had an ear infection... We haven't had a full night of sleep in over a week. Today I spent 5am-6am at a 24 hour coffee shop with her...

Anyway, I have missed taking my blood sugar completely 2 out of the last 4 days...and missed a few meal checks on the other days... Today I felt like garbage all day... And finally managed to take my sugar after dinner...8.8 Ugh!!! No wonder I felt like garbage...

Now I feel like I have hurt this baby, because I was so preoccupied taking care of my other baby... And I was so irritable and tired I don't even feel like I did a good job of that...

Not sure why I am even posting... Just needing to vent. Was looking forward to having two babies... But now I feel completely unprepared. I guess no one ever really is ready...