TMI post !!!!!!

So first of all, i just wanna say i love my boyfriend, more than i’ve ever loved anyone else. he showed me how to truly love and accept love and just made me a better person. Hes been having medical issues going on for the past 2 1/2 years, bad anxiety, stomach issues, acid reflux, just a bunch of different things. When we first got together we were 19 & 18, and we fucked like rabbits and did kinky dirty stuff and then really sweet intimate the next and i loved it; and it would be like 3-4 times a week.

Since we had my youngest daughter, whom is 3 now, sex has been very non-existent. We have sex maybe once every 2-3 WEEKS! My body is really weird after having my girls cause i had two emergency c-sections and it really took a toll on my body. He doesn’t find my stomach attractive anymore and i have stopped loving the skin i’m in. I wanna start going to the gym and doing better but he won’t let me, cause he’s insecure and jealous.

My problem and the reason i’m writing this is cause the sex we have now, honestly SUCKS, it last 2 minutes tops and I never go. He does his thing and it’s done. He says it’s cause the vag is too good, but I’m dying cause i just want to fuck the shit out of him and he instantly cums after like 5 thrusts. 😫😫

I love him and i know that it’s stupid but i just wanted to vent and get opinions or advise if you’ve ever been through this! Much love ❤️