It SUCKS

Ok i am only 13 DPO and this morning i had some little very very light pinkish discharge. AF is du on oct 24. Test still negative.

Trying to stay optimistic but its hard. Feel like another failure this month. Why? Why???? Had a chemical back in Nov 18 and a loss in July. I was told

By many ppl and even my doctor that after a loss, miscarriage, you are double more fertile. Dosent look like this for me!! Aaaargghhjh. feel like my chances of having a baby are fading away. Plus i am 41 years old...

So sad right now.

Sorry i had to vent a little bit this morning!