Didn't think I'd be this sad

My schedule & my son's just NEVER line up. I have to wait to eat breakfast until he's eaten, played & then rocked to sleep for a nap. Then by time I'm starving for lunch..he's ready to do it all over again, pushing back my lunch. I'm tired of eating junk because it's quick, so I decided to cook a healthy lunch..so after he ate & played, I put him in the swing while I cooked, instead of rocking him in the glider as usual. He loved it and was relaxing watching the mobile, so I decided to sit down & eat in peace (I had planned to make it..rock him to sleep, THEN eat). He fell asleep. 😭 And I feel really sad about it lol. I guess I better snap out of it & get this house in shape lol