My Fiance

Lately everything has been really stressful for both me and him. My mom had some sort of mental break and broke into our home stealing a lot of my clothes and practically all of our food. We were with roommates and they let her in because they were upset at us I think.

We figured everything out and we eventually found a couple of friends to stay with for the month until we move to our new place in late November. One of the people we live here with has been kind of rubbing off on my fiance and it's really starting to get on my nerves.

Lately my fiance has been calling me clingy to all of his friends and always saying he has to vent to them about me.

Last night our work (an amusement park) was having a special event were all of the employees could ride the roller coasters. At first towards the beginning of the night I was excited to but it ended up being a really rough night and I just wanted to go home. Well T (the friend that's rubbing off on my fiance) and my fiance wanted to go ride roller coasters at first I was like "Of course I don't want to ruin your guy's night" but after an hour of waiting for them in 31° weather I wanted to go home.

I couldn't feel my ass I was really irritated by how long i was waiting for and etc. Well my fiance calls me and says "T wasn't able to ride one of the roller coasters with me so I'm going to ride another while I'm waiting for him."

I'm not going to lie I whined and told him it's not fair and hung up on him. We got off at 11 PM and it was just hitting the 12:55 am mark. I know lately at work I have been a bit more clingy due to me not feeling comfortable and I just want to be around him.

He makes it sound like I'm so awful for wanting to be around him and I hate it. Like I love him so much and he is pretty much the only person I have left.

The other night he got so drunk he couldn't even walk (I've never seen him this drunk) and I got irritated due to him making smartass remarks like when I said "This isnt fair I wanted to go watch a movie with you not take care of you I didn't agree to this." He proceeds to shoot back with "Well C said she would take care of me." (C is our roommate) This set me off I was pissed and went back to the room and later he had the audacity to start being like "You're so judgmental." "You need to stop telling me what to do."

I feel really bad because I have so much to rant about but I don't wanna put y'all through the torture of reading it. What do you think I should do. I've been tempted to call off the engagement but I'm scared to because I love him so much and we're both scared to take an actual break. I just feel really scared and conflicted lately. Thank you.

Update: It seems like everything has gotten worse. He keeps saying that I'm super needy and have an awful attitude. Earlier today I was crying and my dog came up to cuddle me and I was trying to say his name through all the tears and mind you my fiance is just standing at the door watching me cry rather than comfort me. He comes back in and was like "What did you say?" And I was like "I said Kai's name because at least he's here comforting me while I feel like this."

He stormed out of the room and while writing this I am still crying. Lately hes also been disregarding any health concerns I've had. Like for example my eyes are EXTREMELY sunken in, I've been on my period for a month and a half and my implant has been hurting and he was like "Its probably nothing or if anything it's the makeup from work"

Another concern I have is the fact that he let's other guys talk to me like I'm a huge piece of trash. Hell he'll even let them scream and yell at me along with one punching me in the same arm my implant is in. Mind you when the guy punched me we were kind of play boxing but then out of nowhere he punched my arm leaving a bruise. My fiance has not done anything about both of these situations except telling me I deserved it. I'm so mad, I'm so sad and I just want my best friend back.