Fat Shammed

Well I was diagnosed with PCOS about a year ago now. I knew for a while since multiple women in my family also had PCOS I already knew the signs. With that being said I struggled with my weight and body image a lot growing up. Lately it feels like no matter what I try I can’t lose the weight and after finding out I have reached 200+ pounds I sort of had a breakdown. Now I have worked through a lot of things and I am working on managing my symptoms but tonight I was brought right back to that day. Having dinner with my husband tonight I realized the table across from us was making fun of me. So many feeling ran through my body all at once, but instead of yelling or crying I told my husband I wasn’t feeling well and we boxed up our food and left. When we got home I couldn’t hold it in any more and I just started crying. I explained to my husband what happened and why we really left and he got upset. He kept insisting we go back and then kept asking why I just let that happen. I don’t know what to do I’m just so hurt and upset and I know my husband loves me and is upset also I just don’t even know what to think right now. I don’t know what I’m expecting from posting this but here’s a picture of what I wore today and a picture of my husband and me.