Ever feel like your living a double life?

Hi all!

I’m having a really hard day today pretending to be happy in public but feeling utterly gutted every time I see a mum with her baby/kids, or an ad for pregnancy. It’s so hard to hide the fact that I feel like someone has punched me in the heart, I’m tired and sad. But on the outside No one can tell. It feels like I’m living a double life, because at home I can cry and feel my emotions but no one knows unless you live in my house, and in public, I’m happy, smiling and over all try to be a pleasant person. Does anyone else feel like this ?