Here we go again 😂

So I feel like this is always talked about, drinking while breastfeeding still freaks me out. I don't know why, I know its fine to drink but its like I have a few sips then stop. I want to literally be able to drink like 3 glasses or a bottle of wine, like a smaller bottle and relax but I just never do and am to worried. I know as long as I am fine to drive I can breastfeed, the medication my doctor has me on makes it feel like I am not as drunk. Like before I was pregnant I would be able to drink for a whole night and at the end of the night just feel a little buzzed. I have been EBF and I really dont even want to pump because my supply is perfect for my LO. My mom said its kind of selfish of me to want to drink but its not like I have had more than literally a few sips like maybe once a month. I also just feel bad but honestly I miss my relationship with my red headed friend; cabernet sauvignon 😂