Husband and cheating

My husband has had secret online chats almost all the years we’ve been together. One year ago today and ended this February he had a girl he was sleeping with me met on his out of town job. I found a receipt in his car getting gas in the same grove where she lives, he says he went to another facility to borrow supplies (she no longer works at these facilities apparently) but again, he had a good story. We are about to have our first baby in February and he’s given me no signs that he wants to leave or whatnot and is making all these promises and guarantees. It may just be my trust issue from the past but I’m really to the point where I will just be the wife that ignores the husbands infidelities unless it comes crashing down on me and I know for sure he has slept around again. Please tell me I’m not the only one in this hopeless situation. I love him, he loves me. I don’t know if he had changed for the better but he’s been trying to prove it to me every since then that I’m his only one and who he wants to be with.

just don’t get it sometimes. We are venomous snake owners and she has been making posts about how much she wants these two very specific venomous snakes (that we happen to own) and how she wants a rare odd snake that I actually own, it’s just weird she would know about these but hey, they may be why they bonded in the first place but I’m pretty sure it was my husband who got her into it, bought her her first snake she keeps showing off, and also how she may know these venomous reptile names which we just purchased maybe three months and weeks ago....just seems so fucking odd.

Thanks for reading, but I guess I’m in this forever.