Edited: High needs baby

I have taken him to 8 different pediatricians, there is absolutely nothing wrong with him. Not even reflux. We have tried numerous formulas, we chose the one he likes the most and he’s thankfully thriving physically.

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I’m so upset right now. My baby is very difficult. He’s 3 month old and i haven’t been out of the house since he was born (except from morning walks while he’s asleep in a sling. Also, morning is the only time he is not crying while baby wearing). I haven’t seen my friends or anyone because he is impossible to be outside. People told me it will get better after 6 weeks. Then it was 8 weeks, then it was 3 months but still no change. All the other babies i know have begun to sleep through the night and they are happy to be outside, looking around. Only my baby is still acting like a 3 week old colicky newborn. I feel left behind because my mom friends have just moved on to their next milestones while I’m stuck in the same circle over and over again. I have accepted that it will never get better and since then my usual days became just dull unhappy hours divided by feeding times. At least I’m not disappointed any more. I was so excited about everything we could do together but now i just look forward to his sleep hours, which are short because he still eats every 2.5- 3 hours day or night. He’s formula fed by the way. I thought the only advantage of formula feeding was that they go a bit longer without eating. I don’t know why I’m writing this, I’m just exhausted and sad that after everything i’ve been through, including late term pregnancy loss i still get everything the hard way. I just can not have a break. I wanted to be happy and i really tried but it’s not meant for me as I see.

I saw a psychiatrist and i don’t have ppd. Just an unhappy baby. I prefer to stay anonymous, all i want is to share it with people who won’t judge