Listening ear

I recently found out I’m 2 months pregnant. I’m in a relationship that’s rocky honestly. Things between me & my boyfriend started off really fast. We only been together 3 months. I’m torn between keeping my baby, which is something that I want to do so badly but I feel like eventually I’ll be doing it all alone. This would be my first child. I couldn’t imagine going thru pregnancy alone. With everything else that’s on my back that’s stressful. I still wanna give my baby a chance. Everything happens for a reason right? Tomorrow I made an appt to the clinic to terminate that pregnancy but at the end of it all im scared that if I give up this life what if I’m not able to do this again? I would be basing my decisions off of my relationship, which isn’t fair at all. I’m so sad, ppl don’t have a clue I literally cry all the time wishing it was a better outcome but it’s just reality. I feel ashamed because some women would do anything to be in my shoes. Just happy to carry a baby. Not saying I’m not happy because I am. I’ve become so attached to this little human being that it’s making me sick of thinking that I possibly would be letting this go.