I should love him more.

My partner and I have been together for a year and 10 months, we have 1 year old.

But half way through the pregnancy I fell completely out of love with him and I still feel like i don't love him. I could be because of his anger issues, punching walls, screaming and yelling when tiny things go wrong, him being obsessed with money yet never saving any, spending hundreds of dollars on weed.

We've broken up once but I went back just to see if I'd get the feelings back, loves me SO much...

I don't miss him when he goes places for days on end,

I never think about him during the day or when he's at work out out,

I don't care if he's around or not basically,

When we kiss or when he touches me I feel absolutely nothing,

I'm not affectionate towards him,

We never have sex (I never want to) I thought it was a libido issue but turns out my hormones are fine so I'm guessing I'm just not physically attracted to him (which is fucked and not to toot his horn, but he's actually beautiful looking, steel blue eyes),

I never feel the need to go up to him and hug him or kiss him I just don't think about it?

He just won't let me leave, I don't know how he can live with me knowing I don't love him, makes me feel horrible.

Why don't I love him?! I feel like I should, he's the father to my son, but he's done so much crap that has made me resent him.

Despite that he's SO loving, he constantly affectionate with me, loves every part of me, always complimenting me. I just don't deserve him. I feel like he should be with someone that actually loves him.

I just feel bad for him, I've tried but I just don't love him :(

Has anyone been in the same position and what did you do? ☹️🎭💔😟