I’m super bitter and I don’t know what to do....

So I’m 21. My father passed away from cancer 7 years ago of the age 42. He had me and 3 of my siblings with my mother before they split. He remarried this lady who has 2 kids with different men who I believe aren’t in their lives.

We would visit my father every Friday. I used to love going there every week till they married. I couldn’t stand her or her kids. I would always be picked on and blamed for things I didn’t do. When I stood up for myself I had to stand in the corner ....at 13.... I can understand being punished but the corner?!! This was all her doing. My dad was sick and weak. He didn’t get to see a lot of it and when he did I don’t think he could speak up because he didn’t want to make things worse. It was a horrible situation. It got to the point where I no longer wanted visitation to see my dad. I cried and told him I’m sorry. I think he understood.

He died the following weekend. I had no part in the funeral planning. I had a picture I wanted on the picture board of his life and she told me no. That there was enough.... which consisted of his child hood....than the life when he met cari. No pictures of him holding is as babies etc etc...

Her son got to do the eulogy and he hates my dad!!! Even told me on multiple occasions. The funeral was awful and left me with no closure. To make things worst I went to get my things a few days after.

I arrived at my fathers house and her daughter comes out skipping and happy saying

”mom said I get your red chair!!!” The one my father got me our last Christmas together... he was poor couldn’t give much... and one of the few things he gave to me she gave to her own kids....I told myself it’s just a chair, it’s just clothes, it’s just books. Let it go.... but than came the part that broke my heart. I got no personal possessions of his. Not his raiders ring he always wore. Not his hunting knifes that he requested for us kids to have!!!!! Just a box of old papers and a dirty baseball cap that I let my younger sister have.

She even got his ashes. I had created a grave stone for everyone to visit and asked her if we could hurry them so everyone could visit him. I never got a response.

A year later she remarried and gave my fathers ashes to my aunt. The box was DESTROYED. Scratches and stains chips. She didn’t even take care of him.

Fast forward to now. It’s been 7 years. I’m going through a lot of medical issues and other things. His birthday was September 30 and death October 27. He’s been on my mind a lot.

I reached out to her to see how she was and if I could have something of his if she still had it and she was so rude and blamed me for all the bad things. Told me my dad would be disappointed. Everything that she told me was a lie. Confirmed my her own son. He have me a few knife he had that was in shambles.

I want to scream and yell at her. Tell her how hurt I am. I don’t know what to do

These are a few screen shots I have. I deleted the convo because it made me so upset. Only had a few screen shots that I missed when deleting those as wel

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