can’t sleep RANT

Ftm 35+1

I was finally beginning to get nice sleep during the end of my second trimester. My first trimester was filled with constant sleep paralysis and nightmares. So finally having a good 10 hours of sleep felt so good. My bf and I go to sleep around 6pm every night, which is only going to get earlier bc he will start going in earlier bc of the holidays. I usually have been getting AT LEAST 10 hours, sometimes even 12 hours of sleep.

the last 2 weeks, I cannot sleep well at all. I’ve had another nightmare last week, which was my worst yet physically. Good thing my bf helped me calm down. (I know this one was caused by my mom recently not having a single thing to do with me bc I offended her and her stupid glitter covered diaper cake and bassinet)

But even every night not having nightmares, I wake up a million times to pee, which is semi normal for me... but it’s affecting me more now. And right now, it’s 3:30am, I am wide awake! My bf is already at work. And I’m at home, no WiFi, bored. And I just want to sleep.

WHY CAN I NOT SLEEP GOOD ANYMORE

My mind is wanting to sleep, unlike in the beginning of my pregnancy. But I just can’t 😭

Oh and my paranoia is on the rise. I have anxiety anyways, but I’ve been so paranoid and stressed lately. Sighhhh