Just something I need to get off my chest

Life is hard...especially when you have to own up to things. It’s not my coach’s fault, it’s not the judges fault or the principles fault it’s my fault I didn’t make the team. I did it to myself. I’m not good enough and it’s no ones fault but my own. I can’t even pretend that it’s there fault that they did it to me for some reason because they didn’t tryout for me they aren’t me it’s not there fault that I did it wrong it’s mine I should have tried harder, I should have practiced harder, I should have been better. I can’t be mad that my friends made it I didn’t. I’m happy for her I really am....I’m just disappointed in myself because I should have been better