I give up.

My two kids dont want to take naps.

They dont sleep through the night.

Fighting them to eat anything besides crackers or unhealthy crap (thanks grandparents/husband) makes my life miserable.

Cant wean my youngest, all he does is scream no matter how much food i put in him.

Cant potty train my oldest.

I dont sleep.

I dont do anything for myself.

Losing weight excessively, I should weigh 135-150, I weigh 115.

No appetite.

No hobbies. No joy in anything.

I love my kids, but i hate myself.

I cant do this, nobody gives a fart.

They're perfectly healthy, happy kids.

None of this makes sense.

Drs wont take me seriously, I get laughed out of their offices.

"Its normal parenting fatigue"

"Its PPD" when my youngest is 14 months.

Cant afford to work and get out thanks to astronomical daycare costs.

Have no support team.

I'm just broken, a failure.

How can nobody see? How can nobody care?

Im not suicidal, I dont have thoughts like that. "You're fine, get over it"

Mommy groups just shame you

I have no friends to turn to

I thought this was supposed to be such a great time, and its not.

But the kids are fine and thriving, so nobody takes me seriously

Edit here to stay anon, sorry-

I went and saw a mental health professional (not a therapist) and was diagnosed with depression, mild mood disorder, and adult inattentive ADHD.

This just makes me feel broken, like I'm incapable. How can I apparently have so many problems and not have any bad thoughts (like suicide or harming anyone else)?

Being a parent is hard work, and unforgiving. Take care of yourselves, ladies. Dont let yourselves hit a point that I did, or you will feel worse knowing your stupid brain doesnt work right.