idek .,.,.,.

There’s nothing I want more than to lay in bed for days straight and not eat, and not shower and not do anything but cry.

But I can’t do that, because I’m a wife, and a mother. I have chores to do, food to cook, and people to take care of.

I need someone to take care of me. If I don’t do those things, he’ll call me lazy and put me even more down than I already am.

I need time to discover who I once was. I’ve lost myself in these past three years, and I hate the new me. I was once so confident, and so blunt. And now I coward behind a man who doesn’t treat me the way I should be treated. And I don’t know how to get back to how I once was.