Do you ever look at old photos of you, and you know it’s you but it almost feels like you’re looking at a stranger?

On snap I got a memory from 4 years ago and it was me with my friend, it was a video of us sitting by the pool and I was eating a bagel. I remember that moment and the video being taken, but I almost look like a stranger to myself. It’s funny, I actually never eat bagels and I had one today. 4 years ago I was insecure and during the time was only eating rice and salmon during the day (under 900 calories) because I felt fat and was gonna sleep over at my boyfriends place at the time. I was so small then! I hated myself, wanted to be unnoticed, and Just not happy. So much has changed! Went thru a heart break, hit the lowest point of my life and entered into a rebound that was toxic and had the strength to leave years later. I’ve moved 9 times in 3 years and changed my name, which felt so liberating to finally let go of my trauma from childhood and my name that tied me to it. I got tattoos and piercings and finally have my cats which Was all I wanted. I actually have motivation and work hard vs staying home all day laying on the couch watching tv feeling sorry for myself. I’m actually eating and working on boosting my metabolism and bettering my health. 4 years ago I relied on others to make me happy, and today I can finally sit by myself and not feel the need to run. When I see the video, I get almost butterflies in my stomach. For a second I thought, what happened? But then I had to remind myself, trail and error happened and it was the greatest thing to happen for me.