My tragic love story to a happy ending. Never give up hope.

Have you ever lost someone that meant the world to you? What about someone you’ve known your whole life? Someone you thought you’d spend forever with? Your best friend?

What if all of those were the same person?

It’s holiday time, and as happy as the holidays make me they also bring up painful anecdotes. Come February it’ll be 10 years since I lost my childhood best friend/first girlfriend/first love... she was killed in a car accident due to a drunk driver running a red light. I admit that time heals wounds, but the scars remain. Her birthday is New Year’s Day. So while everyone is partying, I’m hurting because it’s another birthday we can’t spend together like we used to. We met in 4th grade. I still miss her everyday. It took me a few years after she died before I even considered dating... and I tried. But it never seemed right. And then after I was reminded of a saying, ‘true love only comes when you’re aren’t searching for it’, did it find me again. A good friend at the time decided to make a profile on a dating app for herself and thought she’d be funny and make one for me. I forgot about it for like a month, and then decided to check out of curiosity... and I had more messages than I ever thought I’d have lol I mean I don’t think I’m necessarily ugly, but I didn’t think I was good looking enough to warrant that much attention lol anyway, I started talking to a few people. And long story short, that’s how I met my wife. I managed to find a once in a lifetime love, twice.

So no matter what happens in your life, no matter how awful or heart breaking, remember you are not alone, you will be ok even if it takes awhile, and you are loved. Whether you have an army behind you or one person, you are important and you deserve to be here and be happy. And if you have no one, I will be your one.

I know this is long, but, as much as I hate sharing my story, I love to at the same time. It will always be painful, but at some point, even the painful things, like losing her, you will smile back on. Because at least you get to say you got to know them, at least you got to love them, at least you got to make them happy for awhile. I will always wish we had more time, but I’m happy I got what time I did with her. And that’s what matters.

Never give up hope. Never give up on love.