Depression?

This is baby number 3 and we planned it but since were getting closer and closer to the due date (I’m 33w) I’m just not excited

I’m dreading it? I’ve been hurting alot, my kids have been acting up way more then usual, I can’t keep up with my house, I think if I can’t breastfeed well have to buy formula we wont qualify for help , my 2.5yo is still in pampers I’ve been trying desperately to get him out but has not succeeded

And i really just am not excited 🙁 I don’t want to feel this way cause after 3 miscarriages we get to have another and have made it this far

I haven’t felt like this before with my other pregnancies and I feel like if I tell my mom or friend I’ll get negative thrown at me

Is this normal

Should I bring it up next week to my dr