Wyatt’s birth Part 4

Baby’s heart rate went down and instated to feel ok.. so every hour I had to get a dose of fentanyl in my epidural line. It would work for 15 mins and numb my back and stomach.. but than the rest of the time my legs kept getting more and more numb. I couldn’t feel my body at all I couldn’t move I couldn’t wiggle my toes.. nothing. So people would have to pick me up and move me.. I found that to be really embarrassing. My boyfriend passed out right after I got my epidural so he missed all the stuff that happened.. my best friend showed up and she was with me while they stuck the line in my sons head because they couldn’t get the monitor to work on my stomach.. when they stuck the line in his head they also were trying to break my water and they broke my water by putting the line in his head. It was green. He pooped inside of me. And they didn’t seem worried about it. I felt bad because it was my fault. I had taken castor oil week or so before. it’s later and my boyfriends mom comes in and my mom comes in and they sit down with us for the rest of the day and just wait for me to deliver the baby.. and it comes to be later at night and the anesthesiologist is about to go into surgery.. and they make me push for half a hour without pain relief and I told them I can’t do it snd I’m shaking and sweating and begging for a c section.

Everyone’s laughing at me snd telling me I don’t have a choice.. I knew that. I was just hoping I’d have one maybe lol.. so they said I have one last dose of fentanyl before they left for surgery and I said HELL YEAH GIVE IT TO ME! And in between contractions they put the peanut ball in between my

Legs to rest my leg and wait for the next contraction.. they didn’t drop the bed and they didn’t put my legs up on the things.. my boyfriend and a nurse held my legs up.. and I gathered my thoughts and said to myself ok ... I’m only gonna not feel my back or my stomach for 10 mins or so and this fentanyl wares off fast! I need to push this baby out fast! And I’m pushing and pushing for a hour and a half.. and the midwife at the hospital is stretching me while I’m pushing and my baby’s Head pops out after donkey seeing a small part of his head for a long time.. and than half his body.. and than he’s completely out! And I was always in denial about there really being a baby in me.. I wanted him for so long snd I tried for months.. that when I gave up it finally happened and I couldn’t believe it.. and I didn’t believe There was really a baby coming out.. I didn’t believe it until they put him on my chest and I felt the warm pulsing cord laying against my body... and I thought .. Yup I’m pregnant lol.. I didn’t fall in love with him like I wanted to.. not until the next day.. the next day I fell in love with him hard! I loved him so much it hurt. Wyatt Ayven Lea.. born 12:58AM September 14th 2019. 8lbs 3oz 21in. Pure hunky chunky 😍 my boyfriend was the best support I could of had while being in labor and I couldn’t ask for anyone better. He immediately burst into tears when he first laid eyes on Wyatt. He fell in love with us both even more💜. Everyone held Wyatt after I held him for a hour and I video chat with my dad and step mom for a few mins because they had been waiting to see him and they didn’t live close. My mom sat in a Corner and threw a fit and I told her to hold Wyatt and she refused to.. and I I made my boyfriend go lay him in her arms... cause she needed to grow up for one and for two that’s her grandson. It rolled around 3AM and everyone left to go get sleep and I got my first shower and man.. can I tell you.. I’ve never smelt worse in my life than I did that day🤢🤮. We stayed in the hospital for 5 days.. Wyatt didn’t eat or wake up at all on day three and he had gotten pretty bad

Jaundice but they didn’t do any blue light.. he sat in the bassinet by the window for a day and soaked up the sun. And I still had a bad spinal headache and my arms were going numb.. it was so painful.. they were suppose to fix my back with a blood patch but they didn’t do it for some reason. I also had a bad cough coming into the hospital. I found out day after we went home that I had pneumonia. Long story short.. my mom ruined my experience with her being drunk and dramatic and I was in pain. I didn’t tear at all! 18 hour labor! And I had a beautiful baby boy.💜 labor and delivery +fresh 48 pics coming soon...