Loneliness.

At the beginning of my pregnancy, mind you it's my third. My husband friends and my friends chose to cause unnecessary drama which led us to stop talking to them for the sake of our relationship, kids, and pregnancy. Out of all the people there was, this one person more like my family really hurt me the most. To cut the story short she asked me a simple question and I gave her a simple answer that she really didn't like to hear. At the time of all this I was having major complication with depression and my pregnancy physically. She didn't understand why I was being distant but even when I did try she kinda put me in the back burner. Either for our other friends, drinking and partying, or her new boyfriend that she lost her virginity too. I get it I lost mine once too and when I did I was hooked on my bf and no one else but when I told her she had simply changed and she started yelling more at my kids and being real distant with me as well she got real defensive and basically cut all ties that night. Since then I've seen her once. I'll admit I was kinda rude at first wouldn't look at her, engage in the conversation she was holding with everyone around but I feel as if I did nothing wrong. Yes I said she changed since she lost it. Said she's been different. I never said she should break up with her bf or was real mean to her. I miss her so much. I miss our days laying on the couches watching movies, our talks our dates. Literally everything. I have 0 friends. I've started coming here for people to talk to or to people to socialize with but it's nothing compared to having her as my friend. Last time we took a step back from our friendship I was the one who initiated we start talking again. My husband and my mother is my only support, friend everything. I sit at home lonely all day everyday. I feel so torn and broken