So anxious

After having a previous ectopic and finally getting pregnant on my own (was told I’d have to start Clomid) I’ve made it to 15w5d. We know baby is a girl and everything on genetic testing looked good. I’ve had zero bleeding. I was pretty sick off and on during 1st trimester. All of my ultrasounds have looked and gone great.

I have been pretty anxious though since day 1 about miscarrying...so much that I’m even afraid to say the word or talk about it (it’s even hard to write this) When I made it to 2nd trimester, I thought for sure I’d be able to relax a little more...and so far I’m a LITTLE less anxious usually but not always. You always hear when you make it to 2nd trimester the risk of it happening goes way down..but then I keep reading and hearing stories of mamas who have lost their babes at 16, 17, 18 weeks and so on...ugh. I don’t know what to think.