Can’t decide

Hi ladies! I was pregnant with an April baby, but I had a miscarriage. I am the matron of honor for my sis in law in November. My April baby would of been 7 months. But now I’m torn to even try again because the baby would be so close to her wedding. I don’t know if I should try to have before her wedding or try and be pregnant during her wedding, then I’d have to wait to try in March. I’m so torn! Anyone been though this? Thanks! I just want a rainbow 🦋🌈