How DO you strive to be a better mum for your children?

I have 3 beautiful babies, 3yrs, 1yrs, and a 2 weeks old.

I am just reflecting and need to do better... My poor oldest has seen the worst of me and dealt with my mess at times.. I can only pray he doesn't remember my terrible days when I lost it on him a few times 😓😥😢😭

What are things do you do to do better and be better to your children? How and what?

I need ways to better let go of frustrations in a different way and not at my kids in the future..I love them so much, I just don't want to let go of my anger at them.

(Don't judge unless you'd like to be judged too!)