Feeling like a jerk

I feel like such a jerk. This is my third pregnancy, my rainbow. I should feel so grateful, but I’m miserable. I honestly hate pregnancy. I would be so unbelievably sad if I lost this baby though. I just hate being so sick. So tired. Not feeling like a normal human. I can’t even clean my house or leave unless it’s for work because I have no motivation or I feel like dog crap. 9 weeks today, finally. I feel like I’ve been pregnant forever already.

Anyone else hate pregnancy like this? The only part I love is when you can feel them move. Everything is just HARD.