Broken family (need to get off of my chest)

My family consists of my mom, step dad. Aunt, two small cousins, and uncle.

Besides my boyfriend and baby girl of course!

Pretty small family. Boyfriend and I live with my mom because she needed help with rent, so we agreed to stay. Anyway,

Throughout my pregnancy, my family showed interest in it. They’d ask me how I was doing, how baby was doing, heck my aunt even went to go see baby at my gender ultrasound and she cried of happiness.

They threw me a baby shower. They went to go visit me at the hospital while I was laboring up until I gave birth...

She was born on the 24th of Nov. I had a c section, and I was hospitalized for 5 days. Out of those 5 days my mom only came to visit for two days. 30 minutes each day. She only held my daughter ONCE for about 20 minutes. After discharge, we went home. My parents were about to leave for the week of thanksgiving. I walked in the door, my mom didnt even say hello. She didn’t ask how I was doing. How I was feeling. I let it slide. Before they left, all she did was come up to my baby and say goodbye. Step dad, he never even held her once. Didnt acknowledge her.

Anyway, fast forward to Sunday the 1st of Dec, my parents came back.

Picture this, house is slightly messy, (because I’m recovering from blood loss and c section. And boyfriend and I are trying to get the hang of parenting)

And the first thing she does when she gets home is starts slamming dishes while putting them away. She starts acting up. Getting mad. Not acknowledging her grandchild once!!! Or me, all she cared about was her stupid kitchen being messy. And then she went off on me on how I threw away a Tupperware. That’s it. That’s how I’m greeted. That’s how my baby is greeted

Yes we cleaned up. No, we aren’t messy people, but because being new to parenting, we are trying to balance everything.

My only support that I’ve had all week has been my amazing boyfriend. No one else.

Everyone else who claimed to be happy about her arrival hasn’t checked on me or her. It fucking hurts. It broke my heart. What’s the point of family if we aren’t united. What did my child ever do to my mother for her not to want to acknowledge my child. To not even hold her or look her way. Just passed by her like nothing. Step dad doesn’t even care at all. because, he wanted a boy. Lol.

Bottom line is, I need to detach from my family. I need to get away from them.

My mom left me when I was 12 at the care of my aunt. She came back into my life when I was 18, 4 years ago..

I always had hope that I’d have that mother daughter bond. Never had. Never will. She isn’t motherly. She can be upset with me one day, and then happy the next like as if nothing happened.

Boyfriend and I are moving beginning of next year.. it just hurts. Because the family I ever knew, is no longer to be found. Yes, I get my aunt has kids of her own, but when I was pregnant, she needed my help ordering from amazon, and I was always there for her. She hasn’t stopped by at the house once after my discharge.

How do I let go of my family? Emotionally attached. My baby girl doesn’t deserve to live in this environment. She doesn’t deserve to have a grandma like this. She’s just 8 days old. What did a newborn ever do to her!

Please no rude comments. I’m already going through hell emotionally and physically. I just wanted to get this off my chest.

All I have is my baby and boyfriend. That’s all I should be focusing on. My family of my own.