Anxiety/depression triggers

Anyone else with depression go through a great period where like you're handling finances and even fights with family/spouse and all this tough shit and then something small happens like say you see a cockroach at 1:30am and that freaks you out. And so now can't sleep and am looking at the dishes that could have been crawled on and not knowing where this monster size bug has been and thinking about the bag of rice that's just closed with chip clips cause you ran out of glass containers or the butter that sits on the counter cause it can't be spread if it's not room temperature. And now I just want to throw everything away and I can't do life anymore and I can't go to work somehow because that has anything to do with seeing a cockroach??? And I can't drink water and I feel like I can taste the bug in the air and now I'm upset because I'm self aware and know I'm acting like a toddler and grown women don't let the world crash because of a bug and that's making me feel like a failure which is just making it worse. Oh hello anxiety attack is that you? Any suggestions? 🥵