Depressed, Confused, & feeling beat down

So I'm sitting here crying, worried, & feeling hopeless! My husband was abusive to the point he got charges & is on probation for it. Today he reported to his probation officer & hasn't been heard from since. He was messaging his sister while there. The last text she got from him is his PO drug tested him & said he had weed in his system. Now I know he doesn't do drugs & his sister flipped & called me. I still talk to her on occassion because we were cool. And it's not her fault he can't control his temper. So when I got off the phone with her I called the jail to see if he was there & they said it would 24-48 hours to be in their system if he was violated. I'm feeling so many emotions right now. I should be happy cause he will get the help he needs & he can't hurt me! But, all I can do is worry about when he gets out( 7-14 years)! I am scared of him! I have nightmares every night of him killing me! I don't feel safe anywhere anymore. I don't want to eat or anything. Honestly I wish he had killed me. The memories hurt worse than when he hit me. I feel like I'm living in hell! Everywhere I look reminds me of him. I want to move far away but I can't afford to! But, at least I made sure to stand up to him & follow through with all the court proceedings! Is there life after this? Or is it just memories & being afraid to live???

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He is is the local County jail being held on $100,000 bail. He has a hearing set for the 17th of December. I have talked to him & he says he never meant for all this to happen. And he never wanted to hurt me he has to get his anger & mental health issues under control. I found out right before Thanksgiving I am pregnant. I did not tell him until lastnite. He said "well congratulations to me, I guess" & tried to change the subject. I told him we had to deal with this but, not right now. We have like 6 months to figure it all out. I told him to worry about getting himself better so he could be a good dad to our baby. He said he would call around 8am to talk more. It's almost 1pm & no phone call. I'm so lost right now!! I'm scared , confused, & SO DEPRESSED!! This is his first baby & he wanted nothing more than to be a father! So I don't understand his reaction. I want the pain & sadness to go away & be happy about this little miracle growing in my belly but, how when all this other stuff is going on???