Ugh..gotta make the right choice

Ok. So I’m not technically having second thoughts. But I’m just feeling some type of way.....

I’m 27 & just had my 3rd baby last year. She will be 1 on the 20th. I have also adopted 2 of my husband’s nephews last year also. So all together we have 5 kids that we are raising. I know in my mind that I don’t want anymore kids. I don’t enjoy pregnancy, I don’t enjoy the after birth feeling of recovery and I don’t want to do the newborn stage anymore. Sleepless nights. Feedings, days and nights mixed up. Lugging car seats around. The whole nine. I adore my kids. I do. The point is.. my husband is getting a vasectomy done this month. And it’s hitting me. That yes although I don’t want anymore kids. I won’t be able to have anymore. It kinda makes me sad that we’re really done and that we won’t be starting over enjoying the fun moments of them learning to roll or crawl and start to walk and talk anymore. Maybe I’m over thinking it. But I gotta tell my heart that this is BEST.

Anyone else feel this way. How do you feel knowing that it’s reality. No more babies.