Can I be mad??

So no judgements please.. I know it’s not healthy but shit happens 😂

So before I became pregnant I smoked (obviously stopped as soon as I found out) which has been a struggle. I’d never touch a cigarette knowing I’m pregnant but the little nicotine monsters make me want one ALL THE TIME. But I’m coping and hopefully after 8 months without one when I give birth I’ll continue not to smoke.. again for baby’s health but also my own.

However, my other half has gone out tonight for a Christmas meal with his work and he’s text me to tell me he’s smoking (he’s only ever been a social smoker)..

I dunno if I can be mad.. like I know I’m only mad because I’m jealous (sounds bad, I’m sorry) but it’s like I’ve heard some women say they stop their partner from drinking out of support.. but I’ve never wanted to do that so I’m happy for him to live his life normally... APART from smoking... ugh the thought of him coming home, smelling like fags, especially when he knows I’ve been finding it difficult... ugh can I even be mad at him??