Just about to give up...

This whole pregnancy has been so hard from being super sick for 5 months, extreme pain in my abdomen area, severe gas pains etc. Just as I turn 30 weeks I was excited this is the home stretch I can do this!!! I was so proud of myself.

Then a hemmhoroid the size of a planet popped out (lifted some things) I'm in more pain from this hemmhoroid than my whole pregnancy of growing. I can't walk without crying in pain, I can't sit, laying down on my side puts pressure on my but cheeks which then agrivates the hemmhoroid. I'm useing sitz baths, ointment every couple hours, tucks, stool softeners, ice packs, made my own witch hazel spray with essential oils. And this is day two of hemmhoroid from hell and I just want to give up from all the pain, feels like someone is holding a lighter toy A-hole!! 😭😭

Now I'm so so nervous about birth as if this doesn't subside in ten weeks I know it's just gonna get worse in labor.